Clutching his mortally wounded side stumbling through the jungle slowly losing consciousness from the loss of blood Jack is at peace with his end knowing that he fulfilled his purpose. Making his way back to where it all began on that fateful day he collapses amidst the bamboo with Vincent lying loyally by his side. Just before he breathes his last breath Jack sees the plane carrying his friends safely home fly overhead and with that his eyes close as he drifts away.
Millions around the world watched in awe as the conclusion to the greatest show of all time had just aired before their very own eyes. There was yelling, there was crying, there was frustrations, happiness, and relief all at the same time. Even writing about it now I get a little teary eyed.
I am willing to bet that at one point or another while reading my blog you asked yourself, hmm I find it funny Nathan hasn’t included some sort of LOST reference in his blog. Well many times I thought about it but resisted because I have been saving it for my very final blog titled “The End”. Which subsequently was also the title of the final episode of LOST.
All 6 seasons of the show were filled with mystery after mystery intertwined with the struggles of the characters that we came to love. During that glorious two and a half hour television event which was the finale much of the mystery of the show was left in tact. What the writers chose to focus on was the resolution of the characters and their story’s. Reflecting on my journey I believe that this part of my story has come to a very similar conclusion. Much of the mystery in my life is still present; many of the questions I am seeking answer for are still burning in the back of my mind. Much like the ending of Lost drove many people crazy the mysteries of life can also drive people to the edge. The exact same questions the characters were asking on LOST are the same questions that people ask themselves everyday. Why am I here, what am I supposed to do? While no one answer can ease your mind and give piece to your soul I believe that there is a way to provide resolution even when deprived of direction.
What is necessary for everyone to achieve happiness amidst turmoil and uncertainty is to shift your focus. A shift from the past to the present, a shift from the negative to the positive, A shift from the worldly to the Godly and what I think is most important is a shift from the exterior things you cant change to your own actions which you have total control of. This is way easier said than done. Trust me when I tell you that although the journey is hard and essentially a life long trial but, in the end it is more worth it than anything else you will put your efforts into.
I find it funny and unnerving at the same time that our focus as people is almost always on the negative. Someone could say ten kind things to you and one negative thing and the only thing you will remember is the negative. I am telling you from my own experience that although you may have every excuse to focus on the negative things it is way healthier for you to go against your first instincts and choose a life where the negative things that happen don’t affect the path that you are on.
This trip has not given me a lot of answers but my resolve to find them and to live my life the way I want has never been greater. Let me tell you my two rules for succeeding in life.
1. Never stop seeking Gods call for your life
2. Never stop seeking out what makes you happy
If anyone tells you otherwise, they are lying both to you and themselves. You are never too young or too old to change the path that you are on. Every passing minute is a chance to turn it around. Don’t make excuses, People who live their life saying things like “some day” and “eventually” end up on the sidelines of other peoples adventures saying “ I wish I would have”. Is that you? Are you sitting on the sideline of a friend or family members adventure reflecting on the life that could have been or could be? Don’t let your self get caught up in feeling sorry for yourself, if your not currently breathing your last breath then get up walk out the door and find whatever it is your looking for.
Breath in and then breath out, that breathe could have been your last. Its not just a clever saying, it’s a reality that many people lose touch with. The fact is that at any random time the breath of air that you breathe into your lungs could quite possibly be the last one you take. We are all dying, one breathe at a time, some faster than others, some closer to that fateful day. Many people will look at that statement and feel depressed, the challenge is to reflect on it and feel alive and motivated.
I look back at everything I have experienced over this last crazy year and more and I stare into the darkness that is the unknown and scream, you will not break me, you will not shut me down, you will not smother my Joy.
“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.”
- Audrey Hepburn
The End